So...
My computer's hard drive completely died. Complete, with little to no hope of repair...and me, without any sort of back ups whatsoever.
That's 2 years of my high resolution versions of computer generated art down the proverbial shitter -- not to mention any emails that meant a damn to me, tons and tons of music (which I guess can be replaced...probably the one thing that can be)...and my conversations. Memories stacked upon memories of my online life, my best friends, photos from Hong Kong, artwork spanning years...
I'm so...upset. So mad at myself for not backing things up and so nervously ill for losing everything that I've made myself nauseous and have tried to fill this void with anything I can because it's been a long bloody time since I've felt this cut off and cut out. So away from my friends and so torn from my life.